i’m still grinning like an idiot..
YOU won’t believe this but my mum thinks he likes me! damn. haha. i’m in heaven. seriously… i couldn’t believe my luck… hehehehe… he actually came up to our table to say hello to my mum.. haha.. i was blushing, naturally.. haha.. gosh.. i couldn’t stop smiling. hehe.. and just before that i was telling my mum that i wanted to take his pic.. and my mum, the mulut besar, actually said "don’t wanna take his picture ah?" in front of him. ryte in front of him! god, i was embarrassed. but he just smiled so i think it was ok.. hehe… and then when he left, my mum said "he purposely came up to the table because of you la".. and "he was looking at u the whole time"… heeh.. you can imagine how red i was at that time.. i couldn’t stop grinning.. my dad was like "my daughter is going crazy.." haha… i told my dad "i think i inherited this craziness from u daddy..".. I’m locco ady.. locco in love..
oh. and he looked super hot yesterday.. damn. my mum said "u’re melting like chocolate"…
mummy, daddy, I’m in love… hehe…
crap. i hope it’s really true…
p/s don’t be shocked. my mum, yes, my mum said i looked hot yesterday. haha. hard to believe eh.. TELL ME ABOUT IT.
the survey
Haha. Was browsing through my school stuff and I saw this… haha… makes me miss my friends even more…
The survey on WAYS TO REJECT BOYS done on the GIRLS OF 4 JUJUR CLASS ‘06.
The big question – a guy approaches you (might be, might not be a friend) and tells you he loves you with all his heart. You don’t feel the same way so you want to reject him. How?
Phani- I’ll think about it (walks away and then forgets to tell him the answer).
- SLAP him.
Pavitra- How long do you know me? What are the reasons of you falling in love with me? (if guy doesn’t know reason) see, you don’t even know why you even like me. Sorry. Goodbye. (if guy knows reason) walks away and pretends that he does not exist.
Erin- Get lost.
Cassie- Sorry, we’d do much better as friends.
- I see you nothing more than just a friend.
Farahin- (laughs) Are you serious? (Oh) I don’t like you. Sorry.
- Sorry, I can’t accept you.
Sarah- Sorry, prefer you as my friend.
Mariam- Sorry, I’m not interested.
Ainin- Sorry, I’m not interested.
Suraya- I have a boyfriend who I love very much. Can we just be friends?
Migano- Sorry, I’m not interested.
Ravinder- We are better off as friends. In that way, we can be closer.
Maddy- Go away, or I’ll call the cops.
Farhana- No, thank you. Just friends. Nothing more.
Afiqah- (talk nicely, politely) I want to concentrate on my studies.
Afifah- (slaps).
Amirah- no, thank you.
Azmira- (goes back home, and sleeps).
Farhana I- No. (btw, she just wants us to know that she doesn’t have a male friend, um.. can we believe that?)
Cat- I like somebody else. Sorry.
Athirah- You’re handsome, but my problem is that I like to flirt. A lot. So I don’t want to get into a relationship with anyone. Yet.
Pirei- I don’t like you. We are still young to be getting ourselves into this “mess”.
Sri- My parents don’t allow me to have one.
- I already have too many boyfriends.
Camela- You’re good/cute/nice. But I’m not interested now. If you’re willing to wait, then maybe.
Rachel- (walk away without saying anything)
- Sorry, I don’t want to/ I don’t like you.
- I already have a boyfriend (edison).
Ranj- Owh, that’s sad. It’s just that I’m too ugly for you and I believe you deserve someone better.
Lucia- I already have a boyfriend. (Done face to face)
- I’m not ready, if you’re willing to wait, wait. If not, get lost.
Khye Lyn- I already have a boyfriend.
- I’m sorry, I don’t feel the same way as you do.
Misama- (I’m still thinking)
The rest of the class was either absent or I lost the 2nd sheet. Haha. SORRY! Damn, I want to know what JEM would say.
back, again.
haih. back again. haha. it’s just that I’m bored sitting at home, with nothing to do except watch tv and (if I’m lucky) read a new book or re-read an old one.
well, I’m going to talk about a new cute guy. well, recently I’ve been addicted to this tv show, the best years. it airs on 8tv every sunday at 12.00 pm. the reason I’ve been so hooked with this show is (you guessed it right!), a guy! and he is super hot, super sexy, super gorgeous. he’s Niall Matter, playing the role of Trent Hamilton. and he’s cute. he is sensitive and charming, a bit too-much of a player but who cares? well, he’s my LATEST crush. haha.
moving on. you wont believe (or maybe you will) what my dad said to my mom the other day… he said… "She (me) looks better now that she fatter" my heart nearly stopped when my eaves-dropping brother told me that. and tomorrow onwards, I’m going jogging!! take that you extra-insulation!!
jpa results gonna be out any moment now.. haih… it’s a nerve-wrecking process. though i seriously doubt i have a chance. for god’s sake, i even got rejected for ipta! the nerve of that people. how dare they reject me? urggh. i hate them. detest them. kon thota mi alma.
oh and btw, maddy’s stairs are truly terrifying. even for me, who normally isn’t afraid of heights. damn. i love maddy’s house’s pillars though. and the fencing. and the landscape. hehe… i love the pillars most! and my oppa.
haha… drunk…
it’s now approximately 5 mins to three in the morning… asking me what I’m doing up so late..? haha, you wont believe me, but it’s coz of my phone, i put it for charging and it needs to be switched off at 3.30… i know, i can hear you, I’m crazy… ok, so, being up until 3 is kinda creepy… just now i heard noises up in the ceiling, and i freaked out, big time… thank heavens i didn’t scream. yet. haha… so, actually, the reason for this totally unwanted, unexpected blogging is cause since i needed to waste some time, i watched 27 dresses… and hell, JAMES MARSDEN is so fabulously, soaking hot… oh yeah, hot. haha… like a tofu on a sizzling hot plate… haha.. yea… well, anyways… I’m in love with his smile… and yes, i know i sound totally insane, of course I’ve seen him act before, and of course I’ve been in love with him before… but that’s the beauty of falling in love with a person for the 5th or 6th time… you get a total, full-blown crush on him. again. (I’m not making any sense right now am i?) sorry. oh.. and when you watch the movie, or if you’re done with, there’s a scene where both of them, duh, yea, James and Katherine, are in a bar, and they start singing… oh, hell, james’s voice is sooooooo adorable! (oh, yeah, I’m screaming now) and his smile is the forever heart-capturing one… (he smiles better than brad pitt)… haha… cant believe i actually said that… haha… I’m drunk. obviously.. hehe… and then, there’s this another scene (okay, if you don’t wanna know the story, if you wish to find out the storyline yourself, you’d better stop reading now!) when Katherine says she can actually fall in love with him… and he says "get over here"… damn, i was ready to throw millions of daggers at her. i swear. oh, he is the cutest! (sorry Wes, it’s only for a week or so….) damn. I’m in love… and then, i watched jumper (it’s kinda late, i know)… and i hate Rachel Bilson. i hate her. and i love Hayden. i love him. too. haha.
I’m a jumper, alright. a darn good one too. haha… jumping from one celebrity guy to another.
but i love James. and Hayden. and Wes.
dreamer…
oh god. I’m stumped. i thought that when the results are out, then i would know what I’d wanna do. i figured that i would be sure of what i would wanna be in the future. god must’ve been laughing at me from above. i have gotten my results and still DON’T KNOW what i would wanna or for the matter what i would be doing. i am back at square one (if i had ever moved forward that is). i am as confused and bewildered as i was a few months, weeks ago. i don’t know what i WANT! oh. well, i have some things figured out at least…
the list of things my future job must be able to offer…
1. money. lots of money. maybe be a multi-millionaire by the age of 50. haha…
2. maybe by the age of 40… hehe… *refer to the statement above*
3. lots of rest period. um, maybe two months off in a year. haha. then i wouldn’t mind working 24/7 for the rest of the 10 months.
4. i must be able to buy a beautiful house. since i wont get married, my mom and dad MUST stay with me. the kitchen must be up to mom’s liking, (she’s gonna do all the cooking… i would die if i have to cook everyday!!)
5. own a Mercedes Benz S350 or E240.
6. on second thought i want a Ferrari Enzo or at least an Audi TT… (a girl sure CAN dream…)
7. the house must have a swimming pool!!
8. own a fleet of private jets. HAHA!
9. my room must have a HUGE walk-in closet. bigger and better than gabrielle’s from desperate housewives and Rain’s in full house…
10. oh. and my house must have a huge garage. then, dad can store his cars. and mine too. obviously.
i dream too much. i know. huuhuu….
damn…
aiyo.. time is running out… and i am dreading every second (if not nano-sec) of this countdown… shit. i don’t want them to release the results…. i don’t want them to… part of me obviously knows it has to come out sooner or later (that’s my practical part).. but part of me just want the whole results stuff to go to HELL!!!!!! oh. please. stop torturing me. stop making me cry every minute. stop.
feeling retarded…
I’ve never felt more helpless in my life. i feel like running away from everything. and everybody. here i am fretting about the results, sounding like a totally deluded moron, a suicidal pathetic whining bitch. sorry. as u may have noticed, i am in a foul mood… not to mention just finished re-reading harry potter and the order of the phoenix, which has (if possible made my mood even worse). i hate that book. it’s the worst she’s ever done. and i hate it even more coz sirius dies. and it’s all harry’s fault.
anyways, back to SPM… whenever i think bout the results, i cant help but think bout the exam papers. and how "well" i answered them. i know that past is past, and nothings gonna change it with me talking about it. but i just cant help it, ya’know…? i cant help but wonder whether my goddamn essay was up to the standards. or whether the examiners laughed at my stupidity. and whether i did stupid careless mistakes… that stupid ecosystem question (bio) is disturbing me as well. sometimes, i feel like laughing when i realize my mistakes. and then immediately wanna cry. i keep comparing them to the trial papers. the sejarah essays. i clearly did a better job during trials.
i dunno. i feel like jumping off a cliff to just eliminate this hollow feeling.
or
maybe I’ll try bungee jumping and fervently pray that the ropes break halfway thro’ my jump.
haha. i know i sound like a crazy person. maybe i should get admitted in tanjung rambutan hospital.
my dad is more worried about me in college. he is constantly thinking bout how i am going to stay away from them and what will i be eating and stuff like that. he even considered moving the whole family to where-ever I’ll be going, until my mom reminded him bout my brothers. haha… and just now i followed my dad to fetch my brothers from tuition. i was sighing coz of results and my dad, he was more worried bout the fact that i cant take care of myself, how i always need someone with me to remind me to do something, i don’t (& wont) clean my bed in the morning and how i don’t eat until my mom yells at me… he was even worried about the amount of food i take… he said even chickens eat more than me…
i love my dad…. and now, I’m even more terrified bout the results. god!
Find him…
Find A Guy Who Calls You Beautiful Instead Of Hot
Who Calls You Back When You Hang Up On Him
Who Will Lie Under The Stars And Listen To Your Heartbeat
Or Will Stay Awake Just To Watch You Sleep…
Wait For The Boy Who Kisses Your Forehead
Who Wants To Show You Off To The World When You Are In Sweats
Who Holds Your Hand In Front Of His Friends
Who Thinks You’re Just As Pretty Without Makeup On
One Who Is Constantly Reminding You Of How Much He Cares
And How Lucky He Is To Have You
The One Who Turns To His Friends And Says…"Thats Her"
Have..?
Have you ever just been sitting there
Minding your own business when you
Hear that sad song come on the radio
& you start to cry & you just can’t stop
Because at that moment, all you want
To do is tell him how you feel
& just hope its enough.
